I’m REALLY Over You!

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“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.” 

― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore

They say time heals all wounds. I don’t know if I agree with that.

Something heals them. Time. Experience. Sheer exhaustion.

Whatever it is, it seems yours truly had been in a never-ending fight to the death that apparently concluded…and WITHOUT warning!

Cue closing credits…this poem is a result…

I’m REALLY…Over You

Weirdly grateful
for the emergency
that brought you to my aid
Fate has a way
of reminding us
when the full of an emotional debt is paid
I looked at you
clearly
for the first time in years
And thought to myself
(Laughed actually)
how the fuck losing you
was the biggest part of my fears
WOW, I'm REALLY…over you!
was the feeling that rose
from the depths of my soul
Wanting you back,
I was sure
would never get old
Lemme tell you…it did!
Yesterday was like
I was seeing you--the real you
for the first time
Fighting back a bit of nausea
thinking how I
actually wanted ONLY you to be mine
"Love" has a way
of making us stupid, blind, even deranged
some of the things we fall for
now, appear so foreign…so strange
The shape of your mouth
and the look of even your teeth
strangely used to be so captivating to me
Yet, in this new light
Through these new lenses
That same mouth, Those same teeth
Looked rather old and crappy
Huh! I'm REALLY…over you!
I can't fucking believe it!
How was I
so willing
to accept all your bullshit?
Normally,
There's repressed attraction,
that feeling of nostalgia,
memories you want to recapture,
a renewed urge to take action
Sometimes, in the departure
you want to linger in the moment
and not walk away
Man! yesterday was easy!
Good-bye and yes, thank you
No lingering desire to stay
One about-face
And a quick pivot on the heels
There was no pause,
no looking back, no last look to steal
A-MAZING! I'm REALLY…over you.
However,
you'll be remembering
how good I looked
And thinking
That beautiful soul was in the palm of my hand
and her…for granted… I took
HALLELUJAH! I'm REALLY…over…you…
Yeeeaaahhh, I really done
For the first time
in my life
it seems I
hit an emotional home run.

Yep! This is my announcement to the universe.

“I’ve never fooled anyone. I’ve let people fool themselves. They didn’t bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn’t argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn’t.” 
― Marilyn Monroe

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